|Last Full Day in Belize
||[Feb. 21st, 2009|03:33 pm]
Today just about broke my heart. We walked about a mile up the road from this Resort to Seine Bight Villiage, which is a Garafuni place. The pictures tell the story. To walk back on the beach was SO trash covered, so vile, so dirty, so sad. So many kids. The poverty, lack of opportunity, and breeding power of those with less is so overwhelming that it's just a struggle for me to have any hope for our enviroment. Enviromental concerns are a luxury for the rich. People just don't care, because they can't care. It's staggering. It's sobering. I'm not heading further south on this continent. I'm done here and ready to get back home. We may sometimes think that things are bad at home, but a little perspective goes a long way. My Mom got a bit snippy with me, and I with her, but she was overheated, and having seen a puppy be killed to be "put out of it's misery" and also little kids everywhere just crying, running into the streets, as a teacher I think her heart had all it could take from our little detour off of resort land. I know there are many hyper liberal people on LJ who will be indignant. "Who are you to judge how someone else should live. Blah de Blah Blah." Ummm. I'll show you the pictures in a few days of the absolute hell and trash and say that the human survival spirit is amazing. The strength of some people are amazing. I will be silenced into a locked down blog possibly, but I am reminded that the true way to make a difference is going to be in population control, not in the small things I do to recycle, pick up trash, buy a little soccer ball for the kids here like my Mom did and sending donations. The problem is just too big. The breeding power too much, multiplied by the vast breeding going on in all poor parts in all of the world. I'm going to go grab some dinner and bury my head in yet another book so I can sleep tonight.
On the same token, there are amazing things about Belize. The freedom of the people hanging out by the sea. So many people are in no hurry. There is no "upsell" or "hustle" concept here. People really do take it easy. There is less worry, more friendliness, and less concern about money. The birdlife, flora, and color of the Ocean is a thing of beauty, and I try to focus on that. The only way to enjoy it is to ignore, shut out, avoid, and realize that the sanitized reality may be all that I can handle, but in the few hours I was in the Villiage it began to not look that bad to me. We all adjust. Just like the first day, when I felt 90% humidity was not tolerable. Well, today I walked 2 miles in the heat of the day and it wasn't that bad. In fact, I could even do so while I carried some soda.
Tomorrow night I'll be sleeping in Dallas, since our whole flight from Dallas to Seattle was cancelled, then back to Seattle. It's only a bummer because I don't much have the extra time off to miss another day of work, but that's beyond my control. I'm missing you, my friends, and I hope you miss my blabbering to some extent. Most of all, I miss Craig dearly and look forward to seeing him and my fat American kitty cats, spoiled and purry.