||[Aug. 11th, 2008|02:27 pm]
I have something happy to say. Nerve pain down the leg is a bit better. I even felt a shift in my lower spine this morning I haven't felt in forever the muscles were so tight. There is hope.
It's not even 3pm yet and I'm shaking, hot, trying not to tremble the pain is so intense. Just beat tired. My stomach is swollen and I walk like an old person. I want to be at home with ice in the front of the dreaded T zone.
And I fly out on Wed morning. *le sigh*.
I'm scared. Still not at 100% for work. It's been 48 days since my surgery. I am STILL in pain from it. It's impacting every day of my life. Not sure what else to say. Scared about my job and close to dropping out of my conference. Not sure why I did this.
Even an extra vicoden per day is not getting me back where I need to be. I slept for 9 hours last night and took a 2 hour nap in the middle of the day. I never used to need naps. If I look pale, weak, and puny, never fear. We add Physical Therapy tomorrow. Just hope it works because this pain is about to drive me up a tree. I just have to remember afternoon is the worst for me. It always is. Night and morning are better.
Please let me better in time for Amy and Angela's birthday?