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Good, Bad, Scary [Jul. 19th, 2008|08:06 pm]
anomalous_girl is here taking care of me and we are having a blask!
We watched 27 dressed and it was really fun and we loved it. Silly!
Got a cheap dress at Kohl's that is work appropriate, a knee length black skirt that matches and also a white blouse that is adorable.
Bought yummy groceries that are healthy.
Awesome foot soak helped relax me so much.
I was able to get a little birthday present for Brooke since I took her momma for the weekend.

Very low and drugs, very high on pain and tired.
Didn't get to see carryaway today, but SOON.
Didn't Get ANY repls from my nice not to everyone in the plastic's office.
I'm terrified I'll be kicked out of the conference.

I am only a size 4 and I'm still 20% swollen at least. I'm almost 5'8" and it's too thin. Size 4 is NOT a big woman at all.

Thing are still difficult with Craig and I still love him like mad. We'v been rightung, which is unhealthy.

[User Picture]From: dove
2008-07-20 02:18 pm (UTC)
Size 4 isn't even a "normal" woman at all, but when have you ever been normal? ;) Do you realize I've lost a YOU? Sometime when you're healed I want you to jump on my back so I can get some perspective.

I love you, you little slip of a girl. I'm sorry things are rough on the homefront. I really am.

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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-07-20 05:16 pm (UTC)
People now treat me mean in dressing rooms like they did when I was big. YOu can't win. Whatever. I desperately need pants still.

It's like dressing up a child. I see my clothes and they look laughable to me.

Two people yesterday told me they thought you were beautiful and looked really healthy. Just thought you should know. I agree, but I wasn't one of the two who brought it up. My friend Jen is over here and saw your picture.
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[User Picture]From: dove
2008-07-20 05:19 pm (UTC)
Thank you! :)
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-07-20 09:18 pm (UTC)
It's always "Who is THAT?" Oh, that's my best friend. She is so beautiful. Then they debate is it the eyes or the hair they like more. :)
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[User Picture]From: dove
2008-07-20 09:22 pm (UTC)
*shy smile* That is so sweet. I appreciate it very much. Can't wait for us to get some hot pictures together!!!
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[User Picture]From: dove
2008-07-20 05:32 pm (UTC)
Thank you for telling me! :)

I'm sorry people treat you mean. I used to go out shopping with my size 0-2 cousin (the stripper) because all of the women she knew would be bitchy about it. I was the only gal who would go shopping with her and actually tell her how nice she looked. I don't hold someone being small against them. That's ridiculous. I hold superiour attitudes against people, and a lot of small women are snotty. "Don't hate me because I'm beautiful - hate me because I am queen bitch."
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-07-20 09:19 pm (UTC)
I had no idea how hard it is to find professional attractive clothes in a smaller size. It's all "slutwear" like we all are strippers once below a size 6.
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[User Picture]From: dove
2008-07-20 09:23 pm (UTC)
You might have to try some more upscale shops. Maybe Ross just doesn't cut it for dressy stuff.
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[User Picture]From: anomalous_girl
2008-07-21 05:42 am (UTC)
I had a similar experience when I lived in LA and I was friends with a model/actress who had had two children but was still drop dead gorgeous. She literally had no female friends. I was bigger then, a size 16 or 18 but I didn't care what she looked like. She was and still is an awesome person who I got to see first hand was treated horribly.
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