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Mindless Splurge and If Bel Were Here [Jun. 20th, 2008|02:44 pm]
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If Bel Were Here I could just taste the crumbly buttery biscuits and smell how good her cooking is. The whole house is warm and full when she's here.

She'd say, "Hi Ash! Come here you old cranky lady." and promptly be drooled on by a geriatric old cat who loves her.

I'd tell her that I want her to do a cover of The Winds of Change by The Scorpions but acoustic and she'd tell me I'm "such a dork".

She'd say, "Guess where I was last night?" I'd sarcastically reply, "Umm under a 23 year old?" Then she'd tell me she got asked out by a midget and thought about seeing if she could find a circus train nearby to make an interesting story to tell.

And she'd put on hilarious socks and be pissed when Midnight tried to destroy them. Then we'd wake up and go to breakfast. She'd hug me and it would be the most comfortable blackberry vanilla scented hug a friend could have, crazy big hair stuck in my lipgloss or not.

She and Amy would race to tell me I have lipstick on my teeth (again).

Most of all, if Bel were here I'd have the rest of my heart in one place and be about half as anxious as I am now. I knew I'd miss her, I just didn't think I'd still be waking up wondering why she isn't going to show up at my door today.

Since she left I feel more isolated from everything.

In happier thoughts, I bought a "Sally Hansen Comfort Glaze" in "Chocolate Berry". I can say it's a $6 well spent to add a new lipgloss to the collection. This is not the color. The color I got is a shiny berry color. I love it! Also, I went to the Mongolian Grill near my home and it was clean and had water chestnuts, baby corn, and bamboo shoots. I got lots of good meat and veggies. For those of my friends who try to eat healthy, I'd suggest this place. Trying not to be sad, but when I first woke up today I just felt so isolated and I missed her. I woke up dreaming of her cooking.


[User Picture]From: pattinthehatt
2008-06-20 10:02 pm (UTC)
I'm so sorry for your sadness, but I have to tell you that the way you described her she really filled my senses, too, and made me smile. What treasures.

May the day your heart is all in one place be not so far away that the wait is intolerable.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-06-20 10:06 pm (UTC)
I'm lucky that I will get to see her soon. I wish she still lived nearby. Austin isn't THAT far away though. I love her dearly. You know, it isn't just that she's special (and she really is), it's that she's really present and so many times she just shows up and I miss that.
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[User Picture]From: alitria
2008-06-20 10:45 pm (UTC)
While I am not Bel, because nothing can replace your perfect, dearly loved friends, I am in Seattle and would love to find a time to get together if you are still interested.

I know you are having pain issues, but if you want some low-key company to distract you we could try to find a time that works.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-06-21 12:17 am (UTC)
*hugs* That is so sweet. I do have friends, but I've worked so much overtime and have been struggling with so much pain the rest of the time that I haven't been out.

Once I'm healed from surgery, I'd love to meet up! I was thinking I should host a WLS potluck brunch at my place. I love to have company and I make great yogurt parfaits and smoothies.
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[User Picture]From: puppie
2008-06-21 01:08 am (UTC)
I will give her a hug for you when I see her over 4th of July weekend.
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[User Picture]From: christabel
2008-06-21 02:58 pm (UTC)
Yay! Jenn hugs!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-06-21 04:02 pm (UTC)
Well crap. I won't be hugging anyone except a "garment" and an ugly fanny pack of numbing medication that weekend.
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[User Picture]From: gonzy317
2008-06-21 02:47 pm (UTC)
Hell, after reading this *I* miss her and I've never even met her!

*hugs* It sucks so bad to be so far from good friends. I've moved so often in my life I don't have any close friends like that anymore and life blows. My husband isn't much of a "need friends" type, but I sure as hell am and am only recently starting to realize what the hell is missing in my life. Friends like Bel are priceless.

(Asked out by a midget?! ROFL!! Is this a real story?!)
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[User Picture]From: christabel
2008-06-21 02:58 pm (UTC)
Yes ma'am it's all true. My life is a freaking rock-n-roll circus! I'll never forget the expression on Lanette's face when I told her that story. It was classic!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-06-21 04:04 pm (UTC)
I think the part about that which cracked me up the most was I was SO smug knowing that you were going to sock us with the age of this young guy who asked you out.

When you said "Midget" I just about peed my pants. That really made my whole month. I can't believe you turned down a midget hookup.
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[User Picture]From: gonzy317
2008-06-21 06:39 pm (UTC)
That rocks. I just get hit on by lesbians. :)
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[User Picture]From: christabel
2008-06-21 02:56 pm (UTC)

It goes both ways you know...

If I were there:

I'd think dinner like cheeseburgers with a side of ribs would be a great idea!

I'd spend at least part of our conversation bitching about something one of my so called liberal poly hippy roommates did to annoy the piss out of me.

I'd be alternately buying out Torrid and/or Ross.

I'd help myself to a cold coca cola now and again.

I'd beg Craig to take me to Carl Jr's for another Cap'N Crunch milkshake.

I'd watch all the lame dvr'd television you wanted just to spend time with you.

I'd still own 20 + hoodies.

I'd praise you for your crack tea making abilities.

I'd rock out in your living room much to Midnight's dismay.

I'd run interference to poor old Ash could get some food!

I'd eagerly make the drive to the Maple Valley B&B with some AC/DC cranked to 11 while I soaked in the scenery and bitch loudly about the lack of driving and social skills of rural "Warshington" folk.

I'd probably be raiding the gjetost section of your QFC.

I'd be smelling vanilla sugar candles and feeling like I should eat a cookie.

I'd still be amazed at how green everything is there.

I'd sleep like a baby in your guest room and get excited about our brunches out.

I'd be able to not say a word and know you knew exactly what I was talking about.

I'd giggle over random texts sent by the latest victim, er 23 year old.

I'd bring you odd gifts like carpet steamers and follow you around the drugstore looking at weird tacky home decor items.

I'd offer to help.

I'd mean it.

I'd begin with a good hug and leave with a better one.

I wouldn't miss the hell out of you like I do every single day.


Thank you for being amazing and for loving me SO much. I don't know what I'd do or where I'd be without you. I can't ever imagine not having you in my life now. I'll see you again as soon as I can my dear friend. *kiss*

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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2008-06-21 04:06 pm (UTC)

Re: It goes both ways you know...

I was at the store yesterday and almost picked up a regular 12 pack of coke. Then I got all pissy and said, "Arg, what's the point!" and put it back. Let me know when you're coming over so I can buy some regular cokes.

And I'm serious about "The Winds of Change". Yep I want to see if you can whistle. hahaha!

I'm so jealous that I won't be there for the open labs gig! Blog about it for me! I miss you. *hugs*
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