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First World Problems [Dec. 22nd, 2007|08:35 am]
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I'm taking a note from Kat for my whining from now on ;)

1. People who haven't seen me in awhile no longer tell me I "look great" and instead either say I'm "skinny", "looking thin", or "tiny". Well, except for people from California who tell me I'm "almost there" or "making great progress".

2. I love karaoke with Amy, but I get all embarrassed when guys ask me to dance and everyone looks old to me who tries to talk to me (sorry guys, you're all freaking OLD. If you have grey hair don't be asking me to dance because I'm stuck up like that, besides, I'm taken and uptight, so no thanks. There are so many ladies who'd love your attention? Why you wasting your time with the one b*tch in the room who didn't give you even one glance? Immaturity?) Yes, my friends. I am the reason why approaching women is so terrifying. Booo! I'd also like to state that I'm not country, never, not even in Maple Valley. Wearing a cowboy hat is going to make me laugh when you leave the room. See here? Wrangler butts do not drive me nuts. Driving a Ford in the suburbs doesn't make you some sort of Ranch Hand, unless you are roping cash registers or something. Poor Amy has to explain my bad behavior and mend broken egos like the sweetheart she is. Next time we go, I hope she whispers in some guy's ears, "My best friend really is a b*tch and I think she's on the rag. I don't have any Pamprin either. You know? I think she carries mace and she's a little unstable. You're a handsome fellow, but the problem is all her."

3. Nails still aren't perfect. No time for manicure yet.

4. I made cookies all day yesterday. Being domestic is sometimes boring. While I did not eat any of them, using so much butter did really moisturize my hands. Body butter indeed.

5. Still haven't calculated the bills. I don't want to ruin Christmas with reality.

6. 11lbs under goal weight and still no personal chef to feed me and wrap me in silk. I thought getting to a goal weight meant a magic "perfect body" fairy would appear, but NO, I must do squats and get skin removal and feed myself healthy things. How dull.

[User Picture]From: dove
2007-12-22 05:30 pm (UTC)
Regarding #1 (which I assume was at least partually meant for me because I told you that last night). I am sorry. I hate hurting your feelings. I feel bad that it came across as negative. I just find it so trippy how different we look - I didn't mean "bad". Wes always says "Way to snatch an insult out of the jaws of a compliment!" to me. But I of all people should know it's hard not to be on the defensive when it comes to ANY comment about our bodies. We're conditioned for that.

I am sorry I left room for misinterpretation. I should have been more sensitive because I know you've been talking a lot about weight stuff lately. I figured you would understand where I was coming from because this whole surgery and the changes have just been so, well, surreal! Doesn't it ever just surprise you all over again to see me looking so completely different? I mean, I still have moments of surprise when I look in the mirror. I'll catch myself at a certain angle and think "wow, I have a jaw!" or what have you. Or I'll walk by a mirror at a store and not recognize myself because I look "normal".

IF you recognize it in the moment, which isn't always the case, but if you DO... please tell me directly how you feel if I ever hurt your feelings, because I would want to make it right immediately rather than have you carry it around for a night. :( That makes me sad. *hug*

On that note, let me say it. You look great!!!!! I guess I see you getting validated left and right so I (apparently wrongfully and I'm sorry) just tend to assume you know it! You're frickin adorable - and very beautiful - Lanette. You shine, and always have. I hope you know that's how I see you, no matter what weight you've been at. Last night's attention just backs that up (even if it wasn't from anyone you'd be even remotely attracted to. At least they were all polite.).

I know you've been talking a lot here about being below goal, but I don't think you look unhealthy at this point. I have worried about the fact that you haven't been able to eat without feeling nauseous. I haven't been worried about how you look. I just want you to be in good health and not feel sick.

Incidentally, if you're wanting to not lose any more and gain muscle to develop that Flo-Jo butt, I wonder if those power shakes (with protein AND carbs) would help? And isn't it kind of cool to be at the point where you're "sculpting" yourself with muscle building, rather than just having to keep running toward losing weight? I am so proud of you.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2007-12-22 05:53 pm (UTC)
No honey! I thought you were super sweet last night. That's my brother, who I hadn't seen in 6 months. I don't think he meant I was too thin, but he's worried if I keep losing at this rate I'll get sick (he's right). I also think it's weird for him to see how tiny I am. He hugged me and said, "I can double wrap my arms around you! I can't believe how tiny you are." Seriously, it must be strange to have a sister who was really big and now you hug them and your elbows touch eachother. I agree with him BTW, I need to stop losing weight, you know? You didn't hurt my feelings at all. I had a blast.

I'm hoping that over the holidays at least I'll stay the same and not lose anymore. :) It was great to see you last night. I'm off work until the 2nd, let's go again before that for sure.

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[User Picture]From: dove
2007-12-23 02:13 am (UTC)
Yay! I am glad I didn't offend. I had a great time with you too. LOVE my boots, holy cow they rock. I wore them to the brunch today and everyone loved them. I agree we need to get together again soon.
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[User Picture]From: satwood
2007-12-22 06:09 pm (UTC)
#1 is a HUGE reason I want to move out of Cali and get back east.
I don't want my daughter's growing up in this environment. I think having the usual body issue's is hard enough. They just scare me around here...
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2007-12-22 06:13 pm (UTC)
I'm going to be in the bay area a few times a month the next couple of months, and each time I go, even though it isn't LA, it freaks me out how different the culture is. Anything over 115lbs on a woman is considered "unhealthy" or "not sexy". It's really strange.
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[User Picture]From: satwood
2007-12-22 06:14 pm (UTC)
I am in Sacramento area.. and it's really not any different here.
I weigh 100+ lbs less then I did and most days I feel okay about myself and then I go into public..

I am driving to SFO tomorrow night to pick up my mom :)
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[User Picture]From: anomalous_girl
2007-12-22 06:56 pm (UTC)
I don't know where you get this stuff from, you are really funny. I never know what I will come across when reading your entries. And I am glad that you don't like country because I do and that leaves more fans for me.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2007-12-22 06:58 pm (UTC)
Thank you! This is the inside of my brain. Blogs like this are more like the way I naturally talk in person. :)
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[User Picture]From: vivaine666
2007-12-26 09:07 pm (UTC)
You should carry a sign saying what was in #2. LOL that would SOOOO crack me up.

You are getting a bit skinny, but I know this from reading your journal. You look AWESOME! Everyone who sees you tells me what a gorgeous sister I have. Sometimes I just have to show you off kinda like Kelley does with Crystal. I want you to know how proud I am to have you for a sister, and the way you look is just a part of that.
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