|This may be the last day
||[May. 3rd, 2007|12:23 pm]
The last day that the cause of my pain is unproven.
The last day that the cause for my pain is still in my body!
It is my greatest wish, prayer and goal to be out of pain. If that happens I'm going to do something special, and I already know what, but I'm afraid to jinx it and say.
Sounds dumb to be excited for surgery, but considering I lost 100lbs to give myself the best chance of having it get me out of pain safely, and that I've been in pain for 10 years, I'd say if the surgery works to cure the pain or not, the journey has sure been worth it for the chance.
I don't need things in life handed to me on a plate. I only need the possibility to be there, oh, and of course the love and endless support of all of my friends and family. They have been through so much with me through this issue.
I'm not afraid of the surgery, but please, if you do prayers or good thoughts, send some my way that they find and destroy the cause of the pain, finally.
I'm going to ask Craig to make a blog for me tomorrow after surgery, letting the LJ world know how I fair.