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Phost-Your weary gal [Dec. 2nd, 2009|08:47 am]
Lanette
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In good news my weight is stable, a bit lower, and ok. In bad news, my pain levels suck, I'm getting worse again, and job stress and depression have really hit me hard. Anyhow, here's me.


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[User Picture]From: thesugarmonster
2009-12-02 05:10 pm (UTC)
These are such beautiful photos. You're beautuful.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-02 05:12 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
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[User Picture]From: gonzy317
2009-12-02 07:03 pm (UTC)
despite all the pain and stress I know you're going through, on the outside you look as fantastic as always!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-02 07:13 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I feel like I've aged 20 years this month and my eyes are a wreck, but on the outside it is so weird how it doesn't show much.
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[User Picture]From: gonzy317
2009-12-02 07:31 pm (UTC)
Right there with ya on that one. :-/

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[User Picture]From: vivaine666
2009-12-02 07:12 pm (UTC)
You look terrible. Comparitively. You're still beautiful. If I didn't know what you look like when not stressed and in pain I'd think you look great. I hope you get some rest, and soon!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-02 07:14 pm (UTC)
Thanks. I recorded some figure skating in hopes of watching with my sister. I'm so tired of feeling this bad. I know I'm a total dud. I miss my family, my friends, Craig, my LIFE.
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[User Picture]From: vivaine666
2009-12-02 07:26 pm (UTC)
I don't blame you. I miss you feeling good too. But I have faith that it will happen. Like I have faith that MS will be cured. We just have to wait for it--in both of our cases.

What did you record? I've been watching all the Grand Prix events, but they've only had the long programs for men and women, no pairs:( But that will change with the Grand Prix finals! I would love to watch those with you.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-02 07:28 pm (UTC)
Let's do it! Don't forget our date for Xanadu in January either. When is the Grand Prix final? I'll make sure I have the TV reserved.
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[User Picture]From: czechcakeroll
2009-12-02 07:55 pm (UTC)
you hot!!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-03 06:21 am (UTC)
Awww! Thanks! Not feeling hot, but glad you think I look it.
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[User Picture]From: christabel
2009-12-02 08:02 pm (UTC)
I think you're beautiful but I can tell you're worn out and suffering on the inside. I know the feeling sister. I got enough luggage right now to travel extensively around the world for a few years! lol

It's weird. I'm very quiet lately but I have honestly never understood you better than I do right now. I would like to say I have no comprehension but man, I can't imagine this for YEARS. My respect level went through the roof the past few months. I wish we could curl up with some tea and fancy finger foods and watch a lousy movie together. I wish I could just snuggle into your hair and have you pat me on the back for a change and tell me I am not my pain. I know I've give you that speech more than a time or two in the past. ;)

We'll get through all of this the way we have since we met- TOGETHER.

I love you, sweet girl and think about you every day. *BIG HUGS*
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-03 06:23 am (UTC)
*hugs* Thank you so much! I miss you and also wish we could just get away from it all, soak in a giant hot tub until we were in less pain and just snuggle up and watch a silly movie and geek out. I'm short a job, so I'm so sad that New York is on hold. I simply can't take the risk unless I find another job first (and who knows? It just might happen!). Anyhow, if you can swing it I'd love to have you here to visit.
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[User Picture]From: pattinthehatt
2009-12-02 09:04 pm (UTC)
well, you are as pretty as ever, and I wouldn't say that just to say it. but I can always see a difference in your eyes when you are not feeling well. I'm sorry things are so stressful.

I really understand your concern about health care, too. I am worried that when I move I'll have trouble getting a doctor to keep my own chronic pain managed, and yours is much worse. I hope you land a much better, more interesting job and it has wonderful benefits.
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-03 06:24 am (UTC)
Thank you Patt. I'm weary down to the core right now. I've been stripped of pride, which can be good, but now I need to build back up. Humility is good, but empty and hollow is not.
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[User Picture]From: ebullientjenn
2009-12-03 04:53 am (UTC)
You are still looking good on the outside - you always seem to maintain well. Hope the pain gets back under control soon!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-03 06:25 am (UTC)
Thank you! I am proud of maintaining my weight during such a tough emotional time. I still struggle with emotional eating (of course), so that's a positive. Just need to get to a better mental and physical health state.
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[User Picture]From: specsafety
2009-12-03 01:27 pm (UTC)

You look wonderful!

The expression in your face in the first picture sums up what I think you are feeling right now--((((Big Huggg Lanette)))) You have maintained your weight wonderfully, and you look beautiful, as always. I wish I could say the same about my weight!!!! You hang in there Lanette!
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[User Picture]From: starrynytes4me
2009-12-04 02:04 am (UTC)

Re: You look wonderful!

((((Len)))) Many hugs. You always help me keep it in perspective because you understand. Thank you for reminding me that hard times aren't going to last forever.
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