|Oh Jeeze-Ok pain day turns evil?
||[Sep. 11th, 2008|06:01 pm]
I was ok until about 1pm when my back went crazy and started cramping all the way from spine to halfway down my thigh. I went home instead of hanging out with dove and when climbing the stairs to get a muscle relaxer I nearly fell UP them. I tried to lift my right leg and I didn't lift it all the way to the top of the stairs because my body COULD not. I slowed down and focused on one leg at a time and was able to move it, although it hurt my back to do so. Argh. So frustrated. I don't know what caused it to flare, but I'll tell the physical therapy doc on Monday. We tried new exercises yesterday that we pretty hard and could have overdone it.
Anyhow, I feel old, sad, and broken. Why, at 34, can I not see my friends on a week night. I hate being an unreliable friend. It also makes me feel like I couldn't be a parent because right now I couldn't.
Trying to keep my chin up because things ARE getting better, so I need to just realize it's a BAD day and not to freak out. We all have some bad days and some good.